I should be studying, but I'm too busy being inspired by the Egyptian people.

Khalas. Enough. Today I decided that I wasn't going to sit around my apartment anymore, clicking "refresh" on my Facebook newsfeed a dozen times a minute like I do every day when I'm not in class or sleeping. I decided I am a lame excuse for an American and a student and that is going to change right now.

In Egypt, a revolution occurs, and it's not the first one, and perhaps it won't be the last. Today, as I blasted Al-Jazeera from my phone, I caught myself envying the Egyptian people who are protesting in the streets of Cairo, because they are so united as people, as human beings. There is no separation of class or color. They are angry, they are upset. They are fucking sick and tired of the same problems. They have all this resentment built up inside and they are finally releasing it. As I thought about midterms looming ahead and all my homework and dragging myself to work on Saturdays, I wanted to join the Egyptians instead.

I am not stupid, I realize my shallowness. I tell myself everyday that I am sick of this life. However, in reality, I am not sick of this life, I am sick of my response to it. I am sick of my negative outlook on everything that happens and everyone who exists around me. I sit here and complain about dreams deferred. I am twenty-one (soon to be 22 in 9 days). There is nothing, absolutely NOTHING, that I am incapable of at this point. Yet I don't even dare to venture out and try.

I know I am not alone in this self-imposed dilemma. We all struggle with ourselves at some point or another. The question is, what are we going to do about it? This life is not about one road or a single path. It's not about being a good student and if you get a bad grade you're suddenly a bad student. It's about being on your feet and acknowledging your mistakes and running with the new knowledge and understanding you gained from making them.

If you don't want to study, don't study. If you don't want to go to work, don't go. You are in control. You. You have an idea, a dream? Go chase it before the world can conspire to take it from you.

I feel inspired. I am out running. Join me.